Saturday, May 30, 2009
A reason for a start..
Hmm. You may wonder why i decided to start blogging..and why today. Well, i believe everything happens for a reason.And there's definitely a reason for why i want to do this. But im not 100% sure i know that yet. The Story is that i was watching Privileged. This main character Megan inspires me or sth like that.Yeahh, i know sounds lame.lol But she is a writer(in the show) and it's so interesting. Actually i have always been into writing.And i have kept few blogs and journals. But i havent had time to commit so much.. I hope i'll make a progress with this blog! Let's cross finger:)
Anyway, i am not even sure what i want to write.But i like to have this blog always here for me whenever i need to write about whatever.
For a start i must say im not American, nor am i British or from any other English speaking country. But for some reason i love English so much and whenever i have chance i rather use that language. And i guess Internet is the best place for that!
I know i make mistakes..in english..and in real life. So, there's no need to judge. Everybody makes mistakes.
"Mistakes are great educator when one is honest enough to admit them and willing to learn from."
Now you know im not perfect!As Miley Cyrus' song says: Nobody's perfect!
I think i should write something about myself a bit so it's clear who i am or what im doing..
I live in North Europe in a little and lovely country named Estonia. I am blessed with an amazing family. Honestly, i am a very happy girl. I always try to be positive:) My life is good.Even when there are some downs i think it's normal. And i know there's always somewhere somebody who has way more serious problems..
By the way, im 19 years old. Thought it might be an important info too. I'll graduate high school this summer..on 20th June. But school's already out.It means i have finished with all my finals. I had 4 of them:Estonian, English, Society and Math. Honestly, i messed up with all of them:S I don't know the results yet, but i feel i didn't do a good job. That sucks!!! I will get the results to my cellphone as a text msg.And seriously every time i have a text im scared to pick up my phone coz i think it's a exam result. Nerve breaking..
I am planning to go to the University. I would LOVE to study English.But i doubt it's possible. It all depends on my exam results..all i can do right now is cross my fingers and pray!
I have few more things i would like to study..like psychology.I think it's so interesting.And i have always liked to help people.I am a good listener and also a good talker. I talk a lot..and sometimes it confueses people. They might think i only talk and talk..but actually i am a very good listener. I like to hear others problems and help them. Besides, i know in today's world there's sooo many family drama and also so many problems with teenagers..bulling at schools and selfharming..i think the last one i mentioned is pretty serious. I have a friend, actually 2, who selfharm themselves. I always try to talk to them and listen to them..and to be honest it is so hard to understand why they are doing such a thing to theirselves. They have totally wonderful lives. They are not poor, they have a loving family, they have everything they need or want. But my friend always says she does that to herself coz she is sad or mad. She says it is her way to cope with her problems and she knows its wrong and later she feels even worse coz she did that, but she can't stop doing that. I have kept telling her about year all the time that she needs to tell abt this to her parents and she needs a proffesional help. And now finally she told to her best friend about it. And she is going to talk about it with her teacher. I think it is a good sign. A little progression at least!I am hoping all the best for her. But i know there's soo many girls..and boys out there who have the same problems and they should get help!Parents should notice their children more..but children are such a good actors, aren't they?!
Well, i didn't wanna teach or judge or anything. All i want to say is that im willing to work with kids and grownups who have whatever problem in their life.We might think we can handle all by ourselves, but not always it's true. I know, im 19. Quite young so what do i know about such a things..maybe i do not know, but that's why i would LOVE to study psychology. I like when ppl turn to me with their problems.It shows they are ready to work with them and fight with them!It's the BEST start!!!
Okay, now a little different talk..tomorrow i will go to the beach:) yay! It's my first time since last summer..i love beaches..and i love swimming! Summer is cool:) But actually my favorite season is spring. I love how snow starts melting and grass comes under the snow back to our view..and everything goes soo green and it feels like forever since you last stepped on a grass and saw green leaves on the trees. And birds come back from South. I just like it. Sure the other reason why i like spring is coz my birthday is on spring.
It is pretty late here so i better go to bed. Goodnight:)