Sunday, May 31, 2009

Nice start for a day..

Uh!!!Today we were supposed to go to the beach. Mom told we will go to Pärnu beach which is the BEST beach in Estonia.And Pärnu is summer capital of Estonia. Anyway, so as i knew we will go there i was super excited.I put all the swimming stuff to my bag and i was ready to leave. But then dad wanted to wash his hands and he noticed there's no water! GREAT! Water pump was borken. Mom told we won't leave till it's fixed.It looked pretty hopeless. But then suddenly water came back!Yay!Uh, my mom still wanted to touch sth there and water was gone again!Well done, mom! Oh, so again NO water. And this time we couldn't fix it. Dad called to a man who knows about that stuff.He came here and told this pump had been rly broken and we had to buy a new one. Why today?On Sunday. The hottest day since winter! All i wanted to do today was to lay on the beach and SWIM!
Oh, but as we couldn't go to the beach i was just laying in my garden and getting some tan.It's so hot that i wanted to drink, but we didn't have water.Thank God i put water on the bottle before this thing broke down. I wanted to take a water bottle to the beach with me. And i also had in my room a big bottle of water coz i used that when i did some exercises. So, it looks i had hold over some water although i had no idea i may need it like that. LOL
But well, my parents went to this special shop to buy a new pump. I came inside coz it's sooo hot outside and now i see how hard it is to live without a water! I feel sorry for the people who live in deserts where it's always very hot and they are lack of water. They must be really strong.And i know they are like hyper happy if they get some extra water from somewhere. My younger sister was whining coz she was so hot and she wanted water. I tried to explain her that she's lucky she has water most of the time. But these people in deserts must live like that all the time. It's crazy!!!

So, im in my room now and i just watched Hannah Montana. I wanted to watch Privileged, but i couldn't coz in was 12th episode missing. Now im downloading one. I really wish we had this show in our tv too, but we don't.So, i must download.I know it's such a bad thing..

Anyway, im going to a food shop with my sister now. We want water and ice-cream:)

Saturday, May 30, 2009

A reason for a start..

Hmm. You may wonder why i decided to start blogging..and why today. Well, i believe everything happens for a reason.And there's definitely a reason for why i want to do this. But im not 100% sure i know that yet. The Story is that i was watching Privileged. This main character Megan inspires me or sth like that.Yeahh, i know sounds But she is a writer(in the show) and it's so interesting. Actually i have always been into writing.And i have kept few blogs and journals. But i havent had time to commit so much.. I hope i'll make a progress with this blog! Let's cross finger:)
Anyway, i am not even sure what i want to write.But i like to have this blog always here for me whenever i need to write about whatever.
For a start i must say im not American, nor am i British or from any other English speaking country. But for some reason i love English so much and whenever i have chance i rather use that language. And i guess Internet is the best place for that!
I know i make english..and in real life. So, there's no need to judge. Everybody makes mistakes.

"Mistakes are great educator when one is honest enough to admit them and willing to learn from."

Now you know im not perfect!As Miley Cyrus' song says: Nobody's perfect!
I think i should write something about myself a bit so it's clear who i am or what im doing..
I live in North Europe in a little and lovely country named Estonia. I am blessed with an amazing family. Honestly, i am a very happy girl. I always try to be positive:) My life is good.Even when there are some downs i think it's normal. And i know there's always somewhere somebody who has way more serious problems..
By the way, im 19 years old. Thought it might be an important info too. I'll graduate high school this summer..on 20th June. But school's already out.It means i have finished with all my finals. I had 4 of them:Estonian, English, Society and Math. Honestly, i messed up with all of them:S I don't know the results yet, but i feel i didn't do a good job. That sucks!!! I will get the results to my cellphone as a text msg.And seriously every time i have a text im scared to pick up my phone coz i think it's a exam result. Nerve breaking..
I am planning to go to the University. I would LOVE to study English.But i doubt it's possible. It all depends on my exam results..all i can do right now is cross my fingers and pray!
I have few more things i would like to psychology.I think it's so interesting.And i have always liked to help people.I am a good listener and also a good talker. I talk a lot..and sometimes it confueses people. They might think i only talk and talk..but actually i am a very good listener. I like to hear others problems and help them. Besides, i know in today's world there's sooo many family drama and also so many problems with teenagers..bulling at schools and selfharming..i think the last one i mentioned is pretty serious. I have a friend, actually 2, who selfharm themselves. I always try to talk to them and listen to them..and to be honest it is so hard to understand why they are doing such a thing to theirselves. They have totally wonderful lives. They are not poor, they have a loving family, they have everything they need or want. But my friend always says she does that to herself coz she is sad or mad. She says it is her way to cope with her problems and she knows its wrong and later she feels even worse coz she did that, but she can't stop doing that. I have kept telling her about year all the time that she needs to tell abt this to her parents and she needs a proffesional help. And now finally she told to her best friend about it. And she is going to talk about it with her teacher. I think it is a good sign. A little progression at least!I am hoping all the best for her. But i know there's soo many girls..and boys out there who have the same problems and they should get help!Parents should notice their children more..but children are such a good actors, aren't they?!
Well, i didn't wanna teach or judge or anything. All i want to say is that im willing to work with kids and grownups who have whatever problem in their life.We might think we can handle all by ourselves, but not always it's true. I know, im 19. Quite young so what do i know about such a things..maybe i do not know, but that's why i would LOVE to study psychology. I like when ppl turn to me with their problems.It shows they are ready to work with them and fight with them!It's the BEST start!!!

Okay, now a little different talk..tomorrow i will go to the beach:) yay! It's my first time since last summer..i love beaches..and i love swimming! Summer is cool:) But actually my favorite season is spring. I love how snow starts melting and grass comes under the snow back to our view..and everything goes soo green and it feels like forever since you last stepped on a grass and saw green leaves on the trees. And birds come back from South. I just like it. Sure the other reason why i like spring is coz my birthday is on spring.

It is pretty late here so i better go to bed. Goodnight:)