Saturday, October 29, 2011

the world of tastes

I have been reading some of my fav foodblogs for the last 2 hours i think. I love cooking and i love healthy food. I promised myself that when i am moving in with J i´ll try out some new recipes and cook more heatly food, the ones i like. But to be honest i couldnt imagine how much time cooking actaully takes and how expensive is good food. But i still want to give myself a promise to try out something new every week. At least once a week and if i am good i try to blog about it. And i give myself another promise too, if J is home i really try to be a good girlfriend and house"wife" and cook dinners! I want to try out some interesting recipes! :) Cant wait! I also decided that whenever we do go eat out i´ll always try something new. There are so many wonderful meals and wonderful tastes in the world, i want to try as much of them as possible!
Anyway, as i was reading different blogs, i started thinking of Christmas. I am so looking forward to it! I am right now in Finland and i found the most amazin Christmas decoration lights!!! So many beautiful and not so expensive at all! I know J is not very excited about Christmas, but he promised to let me have a Christmas tree and decorations! I am so happy. I want our home to be cozy and Christmasy! :) I cant wait to bake gingercookies and have loads of mandarines! Yum! I also cant wait till our apartment is totally ready! There isnt much to do anymore, but sometimes seems that little things take the longest. I just hope everything gets ready by Christmas! But to be honest, i cant wait till J and i have our very own home! But i know, we are young and we have no rush! But still..
Oh, thinking about home. I miss Mister Chuck. I wonder how is he doing. J´s brother is looking after him!

I found a recipe of a that delicious soup that i definitely want to try to cook too! It is perfect for cold dark autumn night! Warm and tasty dinner!

change of plans

Yesterday night was so crazy! Js work was supposed to end at 11pm and i wanted to go walk there to meet him half way. So i did. But i walked and walked, time passed, but there was no J. :( It was pretty dark so i get a bit scared too. Then i just turned around and started walking back home because it was so late already and J wasnt anywhere. He was waiting me near my dads house, quite angry. He thought i went back to Estonia with my dad. How silly! I wouldnt go away without telling him, besides i would never leave him like that! He was quite mad even though all i wanted to do was to surprise him by going to meet him half way. But came out his workmate drove him home. They had to pass me by car, but none of us saw each others :/ Anyway, but its okay now. J had calmed down and so am i. J told his boss told he can work on Sunday too if he wants, so we are not going home tomorrow, but on Monday morning with the very first ship! I will miss math class tho :/ I hope its okay.
Okay, i am going to watch Hart of Dixie and then E! channel! There are soooo many awesome shows like Keeping up with the Kardashians and Kendra and Coco and Ice and soooo much more! I love E! channel!


Friday, October 28, 2011


Whoa! Its Friday already! I have managed to get done quite much of my school work ;) My dad went to Estonia today so i am alone at his place in Finland right now. I am waiting till Js work finishes. Then we can be together :) He must work tomorrow too and then on Sunday we are going to Helsinki and then home to Estonia :)
Oeh, i am pretty tired! I am going to have a cup of tea and watch a movie or something :) I think i will download The Hart of Dixie. I love that tv series!!!!!

Kyle Webs
PS! I love autumn! So colorful! So cold!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

with my J

Hellooo again! Sandra is happy. So very happy. Why? Because i can be with my Prince every single day. Even though we can spend only the night and the morning together till he goes to work by 3pm, i am still so happy. I just love the feeling of knowing every day that i can see my honey and sleep next to him and wake up still next to him. He's my treasure, my gift! And i am keeping him close to my heart and sole forever!

So, today we woke up before 10am. We had a breakfast and watched tv a bit and then took a bus to the city center. We bought a birthday gift for my dad a little bit more. J bought me two chocolate calendars. I KNOW! I am very childish at that point, but i love chocolate calendars. It's a tradition that my family has always followed. And even though i am not a child anymore, i want to have a chocolate advent calendar every December even when im 50 y.o :D We'll see about that :P
Anyway, he bought me one normal one, where you have just a little piece of chocolate behind every window you are opening. But the other calendar is wayyyy bigger and the treats you have behind every window are way sweeter! For example there are M&M candies, snickers, mars, twix, milkyway, bounty and so on. Yummie stuff! ;)
For there who don't know what a chocolate advent calendar is then i put here a photo of it ;) In this photo all the windows are opened, but actually you open one every day!

Saturday, October 22, 2011

So good to be!

J is at home and i am having the best time! We have gone to the movies and just out for dinners:) Today we are going to swimming to Kalev SPA and later in the evening we're going to Kohila for the weekend. And on Monday we're going to Finland for a week.
It's so great that J is at home and we can be together. It's always so fun and i just like to be with him, i don't care what we are doing. Just knowing he's here is the best feeling ever!
You never believe how much chocolate J bought me!  SOOO much! Now chocolate is my food for months :D haha.
Yesterday he surprised me by buying me a book called "The Gift" (by Cecelia Ahern). I had eyed it on a bookstore for a long time. Cecelia Ahern is my very favorite writer and all her books are soo interesting! So I'm super happy that i have this book now!
I have been quite sick last few days. I have got cold and it sucks. Two nights ago J woke up about 4am and so did i coz i felt so bad. And J cooked me an early breakfast at 5am :) Ommlet! It was so delicious :) And then around 7am he went to buy me some medicine coz we had none at home and i wasnt feeling the best.
O'boy how lucky i am to have J in my life! He treats me like a princess. And i give my best to treat him like a Prince, because that's who he is! My Prince Charming :)

Tuesday, October 18, 2011


Whiii! First of all, i watched Gossip Girl and The Lying Game! O'boy how cool episodes these were! Crazy!!!!!!=D
And today was such a nice day. I went to Rocca Al Mare school to give two classes because the teacher was sick. It was so much fun! I love being a teacher :)
And today i also cleaned the kitchen ;) And i made a cake for J (i hope he's not reading it because the cake is supposed to be a surprise!). I really am looking forward to seeing him! I wanna hug and kiss him and never let him go. He's my sun, my stars, my moon. My world! I love him so much that!!!!! And i am so happy. I am going to bed a big smile on my face. My honey is coming home tomorrow!:)

Monday, October 17, 2011


I am soooo disappointed right now! And mad. I even don't know why i take it so seriously, but c'mon. I don't understand people who talk, talk, talk, but don't DO anything! If you promise to do something, then do it. You have 3 weeks, but you decide to do it in the last minute and then too you think it would be better to wait.. Wtf? Ugh, i am so frustrated. I only want good. I want the best. I wish i lived here alone coz by now the kitchen would be ready! I wouldnt have to wait for the people who promise to do something, but they don't. I really wanted everything to be ready by the time J comes home. I wanted him not to worry about kitchen anymore, i wanted it to be done. Ugh!
But it's not up to me. I gave my best. Today i cleaned the apartment and i am ready for J to come home. I miss him so much!!!!! I cannot wait to see and be with him!
I very hope that we can spend a lootttt of time together. That's the one reason i wanted kitchen to be ready, so he wouldnt have to spend time on that. He needs to rest and he comes home so seldom. I want him to come to his beautiful home where things have got some turns and actions. But no.
I am sorry. But like i said, i can't do anything about it. All i can do is to welcome J with my kisses :)

Sunday, October 16, 2011

If you love someone, tell them. Because sometimes people forget!

I'm sorry

Sometimes i hate myself. Because i ruin all the good i have. And the second i do it i wish i could turn the time back.
I just wish you are more forgiving and that you don't always cut me off and leave my alone. You always do that. Leave me alone. :( And it hurts a lot. You promised not to do that. You promised to stay with me no matter what, even if you are mad at me.
I know it's my fault, but i am sorry and i ask for your forgiveness. I want to talk to you!
I love you!

Saturday, October 15, 2011

my destiny

"When I'm weak, I draw strength from you, and when you're lost, I know how to change your mood. And when I'm down, you breathe life over me. And even though we are sometimes miles apart, we are each other's destiny."

I am waiting you home, my Prince!

Friday, October 14, 2011

new day

Though last night i wasn't the happiest, things got turns! Two hours later i was smiling and i got to sleep well :) Oh, it was sooo good to sleep! Every morning i have had to wake up so early to go to university, but today my class starts at 12:15pm so i got to sleep longer. It felt soooo good!!!!!! :)
I just had a breakfast, but i am still craving for something. Maybe for a muesli with milk? Yessss :)
I sooooooo hope that by the end of today we finally have a sink and water in our kitchen!!!! Fingers crossed!

Thursday, October 13, 2011


13. It's just a number for some of us. But for me it means so much. It's a magical number for me! And every month on 13th i hope it to be a very good day, a perfect day. Sometimes it is. Sometimes it's not. And it's not always up to me how the day turns out to be. But i always try to make it a very special and just a beautiful day. Today was fine. Okay. The day isn't over yet, but i doubt it'll change anything.
I just wish i could go to bed my head full of happy thoughts and that i would feel complitely happy. Right now my head if full of different thoughts. And it's not the best thing. So, the day didn't turn out to be so magical afterall.

Good night!

Let's wait for next 13th :)

Monday, October 10, 2011

My Everything!


Dark autumn :/

Oh! I don't know what's wrong with me! I have a good life, the best man next to me. But i am still sad. I think it's because of the darkness of autumn. Of course i feel a bit lonely because J isn't here. But we talk every day on skype! It makes me happy. But still, i must get over this bad/sad mood. I need energy and i want to smile just like most of the time i do. I sometimes think too much and it makes me sad. But i forgot to appreciate what i have. I am sorry. Because deep in my heart i am the most happiest girl on planet, because i have J in my life!!! I can't wait till 19th October when he's coming home. It'll be so special day for me because this time i am missing him more than i have ever done and i sooooo want to see him and be with him already!!!!!!
Okay, my promise for this dark and rainy autumn: I wake up with a big smile on my face and i'll keep it on my face the whole day. And i promise to find something optimistic from every bad situation. I promise to be happy and positive like i used to be. :)

Friday, October 7, 2011

Mister Chuck

I took Mister Chuck home today! He's adorable. Everything is very new for him so he's walking around and he's so curious. He also slept for a long time and now he's full of energy. It's 10:45pm and to be honest i would like to go to bed soon. But i am not sure he's letting me sleep. We'll see :P
I talked to J on skype before and he saw our little Chuck too :) J seemed to like him a lot. It makes me so happy! It's our little kitten :)

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

sooo cute!

I went to visit the kittens. They were soooo cute! And you have no idea how small they were. So small! Of course i had to choose one which i would like to take home with me on Friday. It was so hard. But i chose the one that i saw first, he was different coz he was sitting on a cat-tree and just looking at me when i first stepped in. The owner said he's the one who likes to be on your lap a lot and wants to be be hold a lot. He also wants to come to your bed at night. Perfect for me when i am alone. I justhope i can give him the best home possible! By the way, he doesn't have a name yet. I need to talk to J and decide how we are going to call our little kitten :)

That's our cutie!

You are the reason I smile!

Oh i just have to write here. I need to share my happiness with someone. I am sooo happy! :) I just am. So so happy! I am shining and smiling and oh i want everybody to know how happy i am! And there's only one reason for that. One amazing, caring, handsome, tall, cute and loving reason - Jay! He's my everything. My reason to be who i am. I smile every time i think of him. I dream of him every day and night! It's so hard to be away from him, but it's better than not having him in my life at all. I am counting days till he's coming back home! I need him! Love, oh, love. It's a beautiful feeling. He is the love of my life and makes my life perfect! I have never been happier than i am right now. I am so grateful for what i have!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Just a little reminder...

I hope you know that You are the BEST! I have nothing to regret. I love everything you have given me. Everything you have done for me. You have made my dreams come true. Don't you ever forget that you mean everything to me!

Monday, October 3, 2011

I wish...

I wish there were Santa Clauses in autumn too, because i have a wish!
A kitten.
I saw today on facebook that very cute kittens are looking for home and i can't stop thinking about them!
J knows i want a kitten, so i really really really hope he'll let me get one! It'll make me and the kitten so happy! :)

Isn't she/he adorable! Only 5 weeks old! Poor kitten was left alone with his/her siblings.

We make magic!

The weather was so beautiful on last weekend. Sun was shining and it was warm. But it started raining again last night. For some reason, i don't mind. I like autumn. I like it's getting colder and darker. I like to stay at home, drink hot tea, light some candles and listen to good music. Home is the best place to be when it's a dark and cold autumn night! Especially when it's raining.
It's weird that i have been living in the apartment about a month, but it already feels so comfortable and right place for me! I only with J was here! Then i would be completely happy!
But knowing that he's in my life and that we both care of each other makes my days perfect. I wake up a big silly smile on my face. I don't care if the weather is bad, i don't care if teachers give us so much homework. Because these are pointless little things. But love is important. Happiness is important. And i have them both in my life! I am lucky! And i would always fight for these, always!:)

I am counting days till i can see J again!

"Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you."

Saturday, October 1, 2011


I just noticed i havent updated here for a long time.
The week when J was at home was so great! I felt lik in heaven! He always makes me feel like a pricess. I love being around him.
We did all kinds of fun things. We went to the movies (3 times), we had dinners out many times and we just spent a lot of time together. The weather was very nice too. Sunny and warm. We walked and talked and was a good week!
Now he's back in Finland and i am again counting days till he comes home! I miss him a lot whenever he's away :(  But i'm stong and optimistic. I must be happy that i have so amazing man in my life! he's my everything!
I have been busy with university work. I had to be a "teacher" at art class and PE class. I am so glad these are over. But don't get me wrong, these were both fun ;)
It's weekend now. I came home today because it's my grandpa's 70th birthday! We had a really nice time celebrating his birthday! And oh, i ate so much :D I was joking i was eating so much so i wouldnt have to eat anything upcoming week! Wish it was true! But i know tomorrow i'll be hungry again :P
Anyway, i was just looking old photos.. the first year of uni, meeting J and everything about last year. I feel so blessed! I really love my life:) I'm so incridebly happy i met my Prince Charming. He makes my days complete!