little.

Needed to write my feelings down..

Disappointed

Disappointed that everything I dreamt

Got crashed down

Disappointed that my hopes

Got fallen around

Disappointed that promises

Aren’t always true

Disappointed that life’s

Struggles to get through

Disappointed in myself

That my hopes very too high

Disappointed that everything

Was a big lie

Disappointed how easily

One moment can change it all

Disappointed how quickly

Big dreams got so small

And another poem i wrote this morning..

So low

May the rain come
and wash your sin
I don't wanna be numb
and let you win
How lucky you are
to come and go
So easily you broke my heart
It was such a blow
What I've left is a chance and faith
is it worth givin'
or is it too late
Forgiving once, forgiving twice
all you say is somehow concise
It's needless to say
that I still care
but since days have been so gray
I don't dare

to go on solo
'cause you went so low.

=]

Morning!!! I felt like coming here in the morning because usually i post blogs in the evenings or before i go to bed..
It's weird that now as i don't have uni anymore i don't know what to do. I can sleep as long and i want and stay up asl long as i want without worrying that i might not get up in the morning.
I've actually made a list of things that i need to do today:

*Sort through children activities and games for the ranch job. I'm gonna help children bday parties!
*Learn some Spanish
*Watch Victorious
*Wait for the phone call from that woman who MAYBE wants me to babysit her child
*Post a video on youtube
*Read The Last Song (i never get enough of reading that book!)
*Clean my room
*Workout a bit
*Upload some pix to twitpic from my phone

So, not many plans. But at least i have something to do. Lol! Happy Wednesday=]
I'll check my to-do-list later on..

Like the blog says I'm a big dreamer..that's why i really like quotes of dreams:P

Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.

all good things come to an end..

All good things come to an end... but then there's another start again :)
The first year of university is officially over for me. Emotions? I'm proud of myself. And im definitely happy for everything that happened in that first year! Especially im super thankful that i got soooo amazing friends there; Im beyond words! They are extraordinary. I never imagined having so much fun in uni. My MegaSixPack has made my first year just wonderful!
So, it's a bit sad that a long summer is ahead. But that doesn't matter i won't see my chicks! Gerli's 20th birthday is coming up soon;) Whooee!

Today i had a phone call from that job interview guy. He said i got the job. But im still waiting the call from that woman who MAYBE wants me to babysit her child this summer. I hate waiting. I can't make any plans until i know what opportunities i have. Let's hope she'll call tomorrow ;)
Mom told that one woman called me today. She probs wants me to help her out with her dancing class student's spring concert. I was helping her last year too. It was so much fun! So, im waiting for her call too just to say her that i would love to help (: Besides, i'll earn some money ;)

Today is Eurovision Song Contest ;) Fingers crossed for Estonia that we'll get to the final;) Please?!=)
Im going to watch Victorious soon and then it's Eurovision time!!!

Quote of the day:

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

trying to be positive!

Today started out very bad. First of all, i saw SO many nightmares..well, more like thrillers. It really felt like i was watching movies all night long and of course when my alarm rang at 7:30pm then i was still so tired! And secondly, the weather SUCKED! It was rainy, cloudy and dark. Everybody who knows me, knows that my mood depends on the weather. So, i wasn't really happy today! ALTHOUGH, i haven't laughed as much as i did today, for soo long. Seriously i laughed so hard that my stomach hurt! My uni besties just make me laugh!:D
But today i also had a job interview which went very well. Thank God i had a better mood by that time!Lol.
The exam that i took was also okay. After the exam our megasixpack was waiting for Jaana. She had English oral exam. Later we went to have a lunch together! And then i was off on a train to Kohila, went to my mom's work, came home with her and had a dinner. I ate too much. I blame the bad weather and the tiredness! Im just SO tired! It's 8pm, but feels like midnight:S
I hope this night will be better!=)



''Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you.''

- Princess Diana

inspiration!

It's gonna be short and quick blog coz its 23:23(make a wish!). I need to wake up 7:30m.
Just wanted to say that i watched Julia&Julie with my mommy and gosh it was so inspiring movie! I seriously think i should have a blog like Julie did, tho i don't cook. Lol!

Anyway, from now on i'll post here every day a quote, saying, lyrics or something that speaks to me and is important to me some how (:



Imagination is not a talent of some people, but it's the health of every person!

Out of luck and out of tune
Half a day and night confused
Love may wash away the blues
But I still ain't over you

Damn the day that I forgot
Came so close and almost lost
It's been one year and fourteen months
But I still ain't over you

Hey, I'm the blood in your veins
I'm the cold when it rains
I'm your heart when it breaks
Time, no it ain't on our side
I'm the truth to your lie
I'm your tear when you cry

Back and forth and side to side
Right ain't wrong if wrong ain't right
Well I will love you day and night
'Cause I still ain't over you

When the walls come crashing in
When the flames come closer then
Just remember time and again
I still ain't over you

i can't be changed...

So, don't call me NAIVE! I've just learned how to forgive...and trust again.

More than anything i wanna fly, i wanna drive, i wanna go...wanna be a part of something i don't know...

so summer-ish! (:

For some reason i haven't written here very much lately. That's probs coz i love writing to my notebook way more:P But that's not that important, is it?!
What's important is that it's kinda like HOLIDAY! YUP! summer holiday! And it's rly hot! I just love it!
Yesterday was a crazy day. I can't write abt everything, but it was crazy! After the craziness i went shopping ;) Bought all i needed.
Today was fun too. First, to Tallinn with my sis; few hours in uni with my gals(who i btw adore!my megasixpack!!!<3). And then i went to meet mom&dad&sis. Oh yeah, my shoes were giving me an headache:S They caused so much pain. But, i survived so i won't whine! Anywho, i walked on CityHall(Linnahall) roof. I wished i had time to just lay down and sunbath there. Lol. Well, but i didnt. So, instead me went shopping. We are gonna have a BBQ tomorrow:) Yay! At home i of course logged on fb and aww Elisa made my day! This girl just knows how to make me happy! No wonder she's my BEST friend!:) Sometimes i forgot how far she lives! But i know distance doesnt count in a friendship!She is and will forever be my best friend<3 I feel so blessed i met her.

Talking about friends. I talked to my sis the other day. We were just talking about old times..and she asked something about Clara. And when i told that this summer it'll be 4 years since she passed away, then she said that 3 years. I was like what? How? But then i started calculating and she was right. I felt SO bad! I think abt C every day! She was the bestest girl i have EVER met! And i will NEVER forget her! But i miss her soo bad. I feel like time is flying by so fast and that its such a long time since we last talked..for some reason i thought it was 4 years..but comes out that 3. Gosh, i miss my baby! I wish she was still here. I have had million moments when i needed to talk to her. But every time i need her i remember wt she last told me: "Sandra, remember i'll never ever leave you. I'll always be with you. Im looking after you. Im your butterfly!". And i know she meant it. I feel her with me every single day. She's in my heart, in my thoughts and in my sole. I wouldn't be that girl who i am without her. She has helped me sooo much! She was and will forever be my rock! I love you, C!





<3

In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away.

So what takes my breath away??.. Today morning it was Miley's new music video Can't Be Tamed ! ! !
I would post the vid here, but it's not on youtube yet. So, instead of the vid, i'll put here a pic of the vid.

"For those who don't know me, I can get a bit crazy."

Can't Be Tamed

Can't Be Tamed by Miley Cyrus <3 I love that song!