Finally!

I am finally in Finland with Johannes. I can finally hold him, talk to him, joke with him, laugh with him, hug and kiss him. I missed him SO much! He's the best guy and the most important to me! I love him from the bottom of my heart.
Pretty much is going on lately, but i try to hold on to what's the most important. Even if you have some decisions to make, you have problems or doubts, in the end everything goes how it has to go. Life's beautiful. And our happiness in in our own hands. I love J soooo much and i am very very very very happy with him! No matter what! And i want him to be happy!
Tomorrow we are going to Helsinki to Linnanmäki amusement part! We are going to celebrate our 1 year anniversary. It's going to be much fun. We can spend the whole day together having fun. i am absolutely waiting for it. And later at night we are going back to Estonia because we have some things to do in next two days. I am so glad J has some days off from work. I hope we can go to the movies and have fun. We haven't done that in Estonia for a while.
Oh, it's SOOOO good to be back from the dancing camp. It was fun, but 2 weeks felt like 2 months :/ I was going crazy. I missed J just so much. But now i am with him and i won't be away from him for so long anymore!!!!!!!!

Much love,

S.B

tomorrow!

YESSSSS!!!!! It's my last night here!!!!Yay! I'll get home tomorrow and I'll get to see J a day after tomorrow. O'boy i haven't been so excited for ages! I miss him like crazy!

PS! I am SO happppppy :)

day after tomorrow!

I want to HUG you!

Beautiful songs makes me feel good. Knowing that a day after tomorrow I'm going home makes me feel even more good. I am seriously counting every hour. Yeah, i miss home that bad. lol. Nope, actually i miss J!
Today has been pretty fun day. Quite usual too. We just had dinner and knowing that we won't get to eat till tomorrow morning, makes us all so anxious.
Miss Jane has let me listen to some very very good songs! Now i have new favorites. We have pretty similar taste of music. Spanish music!

PS!I love you too much for words!



I am craving for fruits! Especially for strawberries!!!!!

Love, oh Love!

I am breathless! I really am. I don't know how to express what i am feeling right now. It's pure happiness! It's impossible to describe. I love him from the bottom of my heart. And it makes me feel so special to know that our love is so strong and we both mean a world to each other! He's my Prince Charming who i met a year ago and i absolutely melted...i just fell in love with him. So easily. How couldn't I? He's so sweet, so smart, so handsome, with the biggest heart ever! I feel so safe with him. He makes my life complete! My love is endless :)

Johannesele!

He makes me happy :)

:) Happy!
I talked to J and he put a smile on my face! :) He always does! He makes me feel so warm and he's so positive. I felt so far from hi, but now i feel he's so close. He Is! Because he's in my heart! I am looking forward to Sunday more than i have ever looked forward to anything else i think. Being apart from him for two weeks is TOO LONG! It may sound stupid, but that's how i feel. I'm in love. I am crazy about my man! And he's my One and Only! My Prince! :)

thoughts

So sensitive. I must carefully choose my words, because i never know how he reacts or what he reads out of it. I don't quite understand why he is like that.. i think he doesn't know how hard it is for me. I don't recognize him, and that's one main reason why i want to be with him. I need to know what's wrong and i need to fix it. I try so hard to be the best for him!



A little sad

Tuesday

It's Tuesday. It means there are only 4 more days till the camp ends. Yesterday we have a long day and night. It started raining and thundering at night, so i woke up once at 4am. The lightening was pretty bad.
But now its morning and although the weather is rainy, sun is shining.
I must keep working.. entertaining children :P

S.B

worried...

My stomach hurts coz i worry. But right now i shouldn't worry at all. Any stress don't do good to me :/ But i can't help. I just don't understand it. I wish i could do something to make things okay. I want it to be fine again. I need him to support me, to be here for me. To make me laugh. To say sweet things to me.
I know eventually it'll happen. Coz i know he cares. But i just don't know why he acts like that right now :( It makes me being away from him so much harder!

Miss you!

I have a wish..

I wish someone could make things normal again, like they should be. I wish that everything was okay. It's so hard if I'm alone and i keep trying make things fine, but it seems so worthless. But i keep trying. Because i care.

PS! I need YOU!