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I'll never ever say anything till its 100%. I hate if i hope and wait and then bam everything changes. I have actually always thought that there's no reason to be so happy over something until you are sure it's happening, like 100% sure. Today when J told me he's coming i was soooo happy. And for a brief moment i was thinking what if he didn't come after all. I knew i shouldn't have been so sure abt his coming. But i had been waiting him for sooo long and if he told he's coming i didn't want to doubt. But now he texted me he can't come today. I know it's not his fault or anything, but it still hurts and sucks! ahhhhh, hate it! What am i gonna do the whole day today? Yesterday i watched all my fav tv shows, i studied and today i didn't go to my aunt's birthday with my parents coz i thought J is coming home =/ Sucks big time!

excited!

I had pretty relaxing day yesterday. I got almost all my hw done (the one that i planned for this weekend). And i also watched my fav tv shows (Hellcats, Gossip Girl, Pretty Little Liars). Sooo interesting. Of course i was waiting J again.. But he didn't come to the net. In the morning i texted him and asked when he's coming back. He said TODAY! That made my dayyyy!!!!!=) I cannot wait to see him!!!!!!!!
I had muesli with milk for breakfast(my fav!). I think i'll make chocolate muffins later and also pasta. J is definitely hungry when he gets home:)
My sis got ill last night, so i'll take care of her today while mom and dad are at my aunt's bday.
Good news! Dad bought my fav chocolate cookies from Finland. Yay! Yummiiee=)

Okiedokie. I am going to eat.. cookies!

S.

ToDay

Today morning i dreamed how awesome it would be if the day was over already. And now i am at home. It's 11pm. So, the day is over. And i survived it. Teacher canceled PE's test. Great! Why the hell i was studying yesterday? But whatever. Dance class was very cool. I just love the dance we are learning! I had today so much energy and i felt great dancing this routine.
I am so happy that it's Thursday night. It means i have no school tomorrow. And then comes weekend. And then Monday that i have also off :) 4-days weekend! Lovely!
I cannot wait to see J! I miss him very very much!!!

I want to study as much as possible tomorrow. I also want to make muffins (but not tomorrow, coz i think J is coming on Saturday. So, i'll bake on Saturday).
I am so hungry. I'm craving for pasta! Oh Yeah! I'll definitely make some good pasta tomorrow!!!!! And i want omlet! Haha. I will make that too! I want chocolate with peanuts too. (don't know how to make that!Lol).
Well, it's too late and i am not going to eat anything right now. So i should stop thinking abt food :D I'm gonna change and watch Hellcats from my lappy on my bed. Cozy!
Night!

S.

O'boy i want this!!!!

Bad bad me!

I know i know i knoww i should be (still) studying for PE test, but i can't. How could i if my friends are distracting me? huh?! :D haha. Actually i am laughing sooo hard. And screw this test! (okay, i don't really mean it). But i am just so tired of studying and remembereing things that seem not very important (right now). I know i should be better student. Okay, enough of writing, laughing and talking. I'll study a bit more and then i'll watch Pretty Little Liars.
I am still hoping to talk to J tonight (tho it's already 10:55pm and i can't stay up too long coz i have to wake up quite early tomorrow:S). I miss him like crazy :(

cannot concentrate :S

I should be studying for tomorrow's PE test. But i just can't concentrate. I am not very motivated either. I've got so much to do. And J told me he has to work this weekend which doesn't make me feel better at all:/
I started a 30 days photo challange the other day on fb. It means i must post every day one photo of a certain theme(memory, ppl, night ect.) Since i am so busy i noticed i hadn't posted last 3 days photos. So i did right now. I want to post every photo of me and J. Maybe it's coz i miss him, or maybe it's coz he's such a big part of my life now. Anyway, it seems to me that all the greatest things have happened when i have been with him! But i try to think more back to the past too.. of the time i didn't know him yet. So, probably i can still post some photos of my friends or other ppl who i have shared some awesome memories with, too :):)
Okiedokie, I must STUDY now! O'boy, i can't wait till weekend. I am still hoping i can see J even just for a minute (make it an hour!). Well, i better go and study. For real this time. I don't want to regret tomorrow! Haha!
:)

PS!

S.

can't wait to see you again..

Johannes..

...did you know that...

:)

I am listening to soundtrack of Burlesque movie. I am so happy coz I got to talk to J for a minute. He's coming online later tonight. =) I can't wait to talk to my sweetie! He makes me so happy!!!!:)

winter list

I know it's already the last day of February and i still haven't made a winter list.
But it's never too late, right? So, here i am making a veryyy late list. So much has happened already and i am not going to add these to this list. I'll write down only things that i wish for March.
This winter(March) i want to:

DO:
spend a lot of time with J
not to argue with J !
make something special

HAVE:
a stipendium
a sunny winter
more time to have fun with J
a lot of flowers

FEEL:
like a princess
loved
happy

S.

O M G - autumn out, winter in.

I was reading my old blog and i just realized that i haven't made a winter list. :| I definitely gotta make that before winter is over!!!
But first i need to write how my autumn list worked out ;)
I'll just copy my autumn list here and put a tick(*) after all these i managed to do/have/feel :)

DO:
watch Letters To Juliet * (twice!)
go to the movies to see Step Up 3 and Devil **
read N.Sparks books *
save money * (and also spend it!haha)
take yoga classes
learn Spanish * (completed A1 level in Jan! So proud!)
enjoy uni classes * :)
listen to audiobook The Undomestic Godness *
go to Finland * (twice)
walk in colorful autumn leaves *
make a Spinach lasagna
eat healthy food every day *

HAVE:
a lot of energy *
good grades *
hot tea when it's cold outside * (had hot tea outside too!)
a quality time with my bf ******* :) Every day with J is the best!
a new bag * (ordered from ebay)
a new pair of jeans & a jacket **
a crazy week with Sharon
time try out new recipes *
a sunny and dry autumn (dont remember anymore. LOL)
a special 13th Sept & Oct ** :)

FEEL:
blessed *
loved * so sooo loved!
super happy *
autumn rain drops in my face *
comfy in my fall clothes *
smart *
independent *
confident *


So, that's it. This autumn has been the best in my life i guess. I have never been so happy in my life. I feel very very loved by my bf who is absolutely amazing! I cannot imagine my life without him. He completes me!

S.