brithdayyy boyy=)

So, i have now more time to write about yesterday. Johannes arrived home about 5:45pm. I was still in the kitchen cooking. He took a shower and came to help me (a bit). Men! Anyway, first guests arrived 30 minutes early so i was still in the kitchen (and J wasn't much of a help:/). But never mind. We talked, laughed and finally all guest arrived and thankfully food was ready too! We had a nice nice nice birthday dinner. And we drank tequila. Even my mom and granny did. It was their first time! Haha :)

I also made a birthday cake for Johannes. He loved it! He told me that from now on i only i have to make him this cake and nothing else. What a sweetheart! I'm so happy he loved the cake:)

I'll put some photos here because sometimes photos speak more than words ;)

J's 22th bday

I decided not to be too harsh. There's no reason to be mad or act disappointed. I know my J too well. I must be the one who makes everything okay again. So, we met on Sunday in Tallinn and came to Kohila. What did we do? Hmm, we slept most of the time. I don't know why but we both were so tired. So, after that we watched a movie The Island. When it was midnight, Anni and I sang a birthday song for J. More than one song actually. haha. Movie ended at 1am. We went to bed. In the morning i woke up 6:15am, made little meat-pies for J and put candle on it. Mom, me and Anni woke him up with birthday song. We gave him presents, hugged and wished happy birthday :) Then he slept 2o more minutes and had to wake up to go to work. It was so good to wake up next to him on his birthday morning!!! I hope he has a very great day at work..it's still his birthday you know!
In the evening when he comes back we'll have a birthday dinner! I try to take photos too ;)

S.B

Happy 22th birthday, my dear Johannes! <3

:'(

..that's why i hate it. Whenever you go out it ends like this. I hate it!!!!!!!!

Good night!

I spray your perfume on me and put your hoodie on. So it feels like you're with me. Just to keep you close.

I am watching "How to Deal". I feel like i need it.

Good night, my Prince.

S.

You..

Don't set your hopes too high 'cause they can be crashed down so easily.


I decide to stay quiet today. Maybe silence is what you need. So you can hear your own heart and thoughts. I hope they speak only good.

Even if you are mad (with no reasons) don't let it come into you. Don't make a mistake.

Love,

S.

PS! I put up with it because i love you. I wait for you endlessly.

why?

The worse thing you can do is to act you don't care.. Though i won't believe you, it still hurts. A lot. And i know that's what you want.
I won't cry, and even if i do, it's not because of you!

Sometimes your actions hurt yourself more than anybody else. You know it. Then why do you keep doing that?

MEN :/





with your tiny flaws

not my favorite Saturday

The smallest thing can change everything. I should know that. Sometimes it's better not to plan or hope for anything. Better let things go they way they must go.. then you won't get disappointed. And I've learned to live with some difficulties. And let people be. And wait for them to come around again.. Maybe if you are apart a bit you understand what you want. I know what i want.

Right now I am craving for strawberries and cherries. I want to celebrate. Just like i wanted yesterday. But not alone.


I better go to walk with my granny's dog. I need to clear my head out.

S.B.

yay and cherries!

Just got my last exam result - B. Super happy. Now all the exams are done! And i didn't fail in any of them (never actually have). I told Johannes too. He said we must celebrate it! Whooee! He's gonna buy cherries, strawberries and wine. I like it!

amazing day!

O'boy. Yesterday was much cooler than i thought it would. I went to Tallinn to meet J after his work. We planned to go swimming to Kalev SPA. And we did. I hadn't swum for so long. So it was really great. Plus, there were 3 different chutes. First i was so scared to slide down. But Johannes encouraged me. So i did it. From all the 3 of them. They were all in different levels.. each one going higher. I was so brave! Haha, and o'boy i loved it! What a feeling. Total adrenaline. :D
After 1,5 hours at Kalev SPA we went to have a dinner at Vapiano. Johannes don't like that place much. He says the food is not so good. It's his opinion. I like it. But whatever. I don't really care where do we eat. it's sure now that we won't go to Vapiano anymore. Well, i hade tonno pizza. It was so huge i couldn't eat it all.
After that we had abt 1,5 hours till Hangover 2. Yup! Johannes wanted to go to watch it. It started 10:20pm. I was so tired. But it was really funny movie. When the movie ended we walked to Johannes' place. I love the fact that he lives in the middle of the city. You can walk home so quickly. I was so tired that i just fell asleep so quick...like a baby :)

I don't know how it sounds to you but i loved that day with Johannes. I had so much fun with him!!!

mind reader!

P.S! I was craving for chocolate the whole day yesterday. When J came home he had bought me Snickers. Just what i needed. How did he know that??? :O
Lovely guy i have!