whoaaa!!!

It's been for a while. I have a lot to tell..
1st. i got into university!!! I'm very happy! Everything seems to be prefect!
2nd. i bought a new cellphone (Sony Ericsson w595). I really LOVE this phone!
3rd. Demi album "Here we go again" came out and it's AMAZING! When i first listened to it i wasn't that excited. I couldn't find many songs i like. But when i listened to it second time i found out i LOVE every song! And now i have listened to these songs like hundred time!
4th. I have only 4 days to work at the cafe and then im FREE to enjoy the end of my summer holiday!! :)
5th. I have done a lot of shopping lately. I got a new bag, summer shorts, shirt, converse and summer dress.
6th. Last weekend we went to Pärnu to the beach.It was an amazing trip with my sweet fam! We had super fun time:) Sea was awesome! So warm water and the weather was hotttt=] We went shopping there too. I got denim shorts! Next day mom and i went to the Old Town of Tallinn. We just walked and went to the cafe. And then we went to the shopping center. And then to the beach in Tallinn. It was fun mother&daughter day :)
7th. Jake is coming to Estonia on 22th August. It's sure now.
8th. I really want to go to work as an au pair next summer..i wanna go to abroad. I made an account at greataupair.com and some familes have already wrote me. One family is like perfect!They live in CA, in Los Angeles. I would really love to go to work for them! I hope everything goes well! We will have a web cam chat when they come back from a business trip.
9th. It's totally SUMMER! I love our garden in the summer. Raspberries, strawberries, blackberries, redberries, gooseberries and everything else u might think of :) So green, so many flowers! Today i drank sooo much raspberry smoothies. But guess what? I have never enough of it!hihi
10th. I watched today Break it or make it & 10 things i hate about you. These are really cool new tv shows! I really enjoy watching these!
11th. I filmed for Elisa today! I miss my besty!!! Demi's song "Gift of a Friend" made me think of how lucky i am that i have Elisa. And all my other close friends!! Listen to this song and you understand!

Lately i have been listened to Carrie Underwood's song "So Small". I think it's such a great song! The lyrics has a great message!Read and think...


So Small

What you got if you ain't got love
the kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up
go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
seem so small

It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count 'cause you can't get it back

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small

so damn happy!

I am HAPPPY!!! I never want to forget how i feel when im SO happy :)
I went to university today and i had to write an essay there and later i had an interview with the headteachers. They will later decided who will get into uni, and who won't. I need a LOT of luck!
And i know i must believe in myself! Today when i was in the bus i listened to music. Whenever i am nervous music always helps me! It calms me down and there's always a right song for every situation.
Today i listened to "Believe in me" by Demi Lovato. It helped me to be more confident!
Oh, but i am not so happy because of the university stuff, but because of Demi! This girl just knows how to make me happy!That's why i so care of her :)
We talked on IM . This time i won't copy the text and paste it here coz i promised her not to tell all the stuff and i just feel she can have her privacy. So no longer am i going to write here what she is talking to me! All i can say is that Demi is the MOST sweetest girl in the universe and she really makes me happy! I wish we could be real friends one day!=]

ps! she thinks i will get into uni!how cute! hope she is right!i cant loose my hope!!!!!=]

Another week's gonna start...

It's Sunday again! Time flies. LOL I went home by the weekend. But now im back at my granny's. On Saturday i went to Tallinn with my parents. I finally got my own Internet connection!:)
Most of the time i was just lazy at home.I was on the net, i was in the garden eating starwberries and playing with my dog. Then i watched my fav tv series and drank strawberry smoothies. Cozy weekend! It was raining but i was inside so i enjoyed the rain drops. I also read the most sweetest myspace bulletin ever. Miley Cyrus posted it.It was so beautiful. And made me think of many things...
She also posted there some videos. So, now i really like a song called "I loved her first" by Heartland! :) Listen to it!!!!!

Anyway,right now one of my fav is also "So small" by Carrie Underwood!=] It had a great message.

Oh, im tired. My sister just asked me to go to the food shop with her. So, i'll go :P

By the way, i LOVE being in old town of Tallinn. I love how many tourists there are. Cute guys:D haha. Well, today in the train next to me sat two guys. Not estonians. I heard them talking in english with the ticket controller although with each other they talked in some unfamilar language to me. Don't even know why im saying it. lol

Right now im reading a book called "Minu Argentina"(My Argentina). Estonian girl worked there in a poor city and she is telling us about her life there. It's so interesting and so different life as we have here. I like reading about different cultures! Next book i'll read will be "Minu Pariis"(My Paris) about a guy who lived in Paris for a year..or longer.

Okayyy, i gotta go now. My sis is waiting after me.

Have a good week!
PS! I need a lot of luck for tuesday and wednesday when i have to go to give a test and have an interview in university!!!=]

Yesterday!!!=]

OHHH!!!I had a very great day yesterday!
As i wrote in my last blog i chatted with Demi on myspace IM. Later that day i logged in to my msn and saw Trace Cyrus was online and i just said hi. Well, i ended up talking to him pretty long! He's so nice and very sweet!Talking to him totally made my day! He talked about Demi and other stuff. It was really fun. I like how he isn't that typical celebrity, you know. He's simple and fun and really sweet!=]

Later i talked to Jake on myspace and to Ruby and to Teddy.He told he wrote a new song and he sent it to me so i could say what i thoink about it. And honestly,i really love the lyrics!!!!!I asked him if i could post the lyrics to my blog and he was okay with it;)
So, here's the song called "Would you still love me".

what if one day i told you
that everything was over
would you forgive me
what if one day i told you
that i still love you
would you still love me

because everyone makes mistakes
and this is a chance to take
to let you know that i
still love you

but would you still love me
when i'm outside crying
for youto come back
even though its pouring
will you be there to open the door
to finally say i forgive you

and girl you can't imagine
how much u mean to me
you are my everything
my one and only
but when i'll be at your door
crying, calling you to forgive me
will you be there to open the door and
say i love you


i hope that you'll believe me
when i'll say that i need you, i want you
i love you

but would you still love me
when i'm outside crying
for youto come back
even though its pouring
will you be there to open the door
to finally say i love you

and finally say, i need you so badly
i've waited for you at my window
wondering for who you left me for
damn i missed you so much
and with your perfect touch
we'll look at each other and say

would you still love me
when i'm outside crying
for youto come back
even though its pouring
will you be there to open the door
to finally say i love you

i love you
i need you, i love you
i need you so much

i love you


Som let me know what ya think of it ;) I think it's a really great song! Can't wait to hear the melody!!=]

Well, today was a really cool day too! I had work and after that i went shopping with my older sis. We went to our fav shop- NewYorker. I bought a new bag, summer shirt, converse and summer shorts:) I like all i got. haha=] After shopping(ps!we were in NewYorker 3 hours!lol) we went to a Turkish restaurant and ate kebab. It was really delicious!!!!!And now im soooo full. lol
I'm going to bed soon!So, good night =]

saving memories:D

Okay, i talked to Demi just a minute ago. Now she is offline.
I really love talking to her.She is so sweet and so very nice!
Well, i like to save memories. Talks and pictures and so on. That's one of the reasons why i keep this blog anyway. I also keep a diary, but lately i have enjoyed more writing here.
Talking to Demi makes me always so happy and it's a special thing for me. So, i will again copy the text here(just for myself so i could ALWAYS remember it!).

7/8/2009

5:50 PM

Sandra♥:

hey how are ya?=]

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5:52 PM

Demetria:

im great, you?

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5:52 PM

Sandra♥:

im good what r u up to?

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6:00 PM

Sandra♥:

btw, have u already started filming CR 2??

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6:01 PM

Demetria:

Just finished looking at my photo comments. Holy, two pages! Fans are improving .

Sadly no

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6:02 PM

Sandra♥:

hahaha sure. they lovee to comment ur pix..i like too ur pix are so pretty and cool!

noo but do u know when will u start filming it?

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6:02 PM

Demetria:

ahah , thank you

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6:02 PM

Sandra♥:

haha. np

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6:03 PM

Demetria:

No clue. I have to wait for a call, but they can't until I finish my tour

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6:03 PM

Sandra♥:

okayy. so when will u finish ur tour?

is a tour in USA right?

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6:07 PM

Sandra♥:

brb

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6:11 PM

Sandra♥:

im back. my granny made me eat pancakes :S uhh.haha.

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6:12 PM

Demetria:

. aweh! i want pancakes!

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6:12 PM

Sandra♥:

aww.i wish i could give u!!! haha

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6:12 PM

Demetria:

lol!

7/8/2009

6:12 PM

Sandra♥:

=D

btw, can i ask u sth?

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6:13 PM

Demetria:

sure.

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6:14 PM

Sandra♥:

okay. when is ur bday? lol

i have always wondered..


Anyway, then she appeared offline.

As i said: i love saving memories :)

Work, work, fun, work

Okay, my work started on 1st of July. I like my work at the cafe. Costumers are nice and everything is good! I am staying at my granny's. Since now we haven't had any conflict which is very good. I get along with her pretty well. Hope it lasts.haha. I heard that my last work day will be on 30th July not 5th August!So, it's very great!
Anyway, i didn't have Internet before. I went home by the weekend and i talked to my mom and she told she will go to Tallinn on wednesday(tomorrow) and she will go to the Internet shop and order me an Internet. yay! BUT yesterday i was about to watch a movie from my laptop and suddenly i noticed i have Internet connection!So, i was able to be on the net yesterday and im here right now too!I talked to Jake and Elisa. And gosh!it's so good to be back:D haha
By the way, at the weekend i got a envelope from Sharon. She send me a chocolate medal that said "graduated" and then a super fun card. She and her parents said congratulations to me. They are so nice! It was such a sweet surprise!<333
Oh, i have a GREAT news!!!:) I was on myspace yesterday and i saw Demi was online and i talked to her on myspace IM. She always makes me so happy!:) I will write our short convo(but it still made me happy!!).


7/6/2009
6:43 PM
Sandra:
hey Demi:-) whats up??
how are ya?
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6:43 PM
Demetria:
Bosting a builleten. Ill talk to you in a sec!
Posting*
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6:43 PM
Sandra:
okay;-)



Well, then she posted her bulletin and didn't talk to me anymore.She went offline. But that's okay!
Double btw news!!!I commented her status yesterday and today i saw she had replied it.
Okay, i will write what i said and what she replied!;)

Sandra: oh u had live chat with Milez:D thats cool=] glad u had fun and im so happy that life is sooo verryy good right now for u!:D u deserve only allll the BEST!!!!:) love you so so much<3 coz you are the BEST =]

Demi: Haha, nope SHE had a live chat with her fans! Lol ! But thank you, same goes to you! Love you as well :)



Awww, maybe i am crazy, but i don't care. She just makes me happy. It may be a little thing, but an important and special for me :) Demi rocks!!!!=]

I'm not strange, i'm different.