Thursday, June 11, 2009

Exam resultssss!!!!!!


Okay!I KNEW this day will come, but i tried not to think of it.And not to worry..Well, yesterday i was in Tallinn with my dad..i was in the car when i got a text msg. I don't know but i had this feeling inside that THIS msg is from the Exam Center. I was afraid to open it, but i finally did. I got my English exam 78 points. I wasn't very happy, but not sad either. It was a hard exam so my result is pretty okay, but i wished i could get at least 80 points. But whatever. And guess what? Just 5 min ago (10:30 am) i got a text msg.Again from the Exam Center. I got society exam 89 points. Now im happy:) This exam was quite hard too and to be honest i even didn't hope to get that much!So, im happy! Now i must wait 2 more exam results- math and estonian. I had no idea when i will get these...

But i am gonna change to subject because i really don't wanna think of the exams.I was thinking of them so much last night(not that i wanted..i just found myself all the time thinking about the exams again..:S) Oh, last night was weird. I cried myself to sleep. And i woke up am because dad came to my room and told i was sneezing a lot. Okay, i even didn't know that because i was sleeping..He checked the Air cleaner machine. I am allergic to dust. So, sometimes i start sneezing and i will have a runny nose. I hate that! But after he has waken me up and noticed too that i am sneezing and i have runny nose. And after that i couldn't fall asleep..But enventually i fell asleep and woke up 8:30 am because mom came to my room..i even don't remember what she was doing there.LOL I have no idea why everybody comes to my room all the time..mostly when i'm sleeping. And to be honest it's weird enough that my dad came to my room to check Air cleaner machine..there's only on explanation: he couldn't sleep because of my sneezing.It probably annoyed him!haha Poor dad!

Okay, but i forgot to say why i was in Tallinn yesterday. Well, my dad needed to go to some place to get one card and i don't know what. And i thought to go with him because i needed to go to the shops. I got a new dress for my graduation and i thought o buy new pra too.I needed with a see-through shoulder straps and geez i thought i will NEVER find one that's right for me. They didn't have many see-through ones, but they had the ones where u can change shoulder straps, so these were fine too..BUT it was hard to find the one that suits me and is normal. I got such a huge headache..Finally i found one.But i already decided i won't use it when it's my graduation.It's so unconfortable. Haha.Yeah i know, i shouldn't buy it at all.Well, i can't brought it back:P

So, yesterday i had very colorful day!
Tomorrow will be AWESOME day!I hope :)

I probs won't have time to write tomorrow..so i will write now what i'm gonna do tomorrow.I hope there won't be any plan changes. Anyway, i must be at school by 11 am. There will be flag team meeting..:S Then me and my friend Elise will catch a train at 12:43 am. We will go to Tallinn. I already bought a movie tickets to Hannah Montana Movie. So, we will go to watch it. And after the cinema we will go shopping. We need to buy two gifts for our friends' birthdays. We will come back by train which leaves from Tallinn 5:25 pm. We arrive home 6:13 pm which means Laura's birthday party has started already. But we will be only about 15 minutes late. That's okay. haha. Great plan, right?!Busy but cool day!:) And on Saturday we are both invited to Sigrid's(our friend's) birthday party.It'll start 7 pm. These two days are gonna be really fun!:)

Oh, my granny just called and asked about my English exam results. She is English teacher so no wonder she wanted to know. But it sucks i didn't get that much as i wanted. I feel like i disappointed her. Although i know she is not that kind of person who would be mad or sad because of it. And they haven't ever given me pressure, but maybe i have pressured myself. My friend always says i don't give much credit for myself.It's probably true. But now the exams are over and i can't change anything. I better live with that!haha :)


"You can get anything, but not everything"

"The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live."

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Wednesday..friendship talk..


O'boy, time flies. It's already Wednesday:P And it's rainy today. Not good! I would like to go out with my friends or go jogging or do SOMETHING.But rain ruins every plan i have. I guess only thing i can do is to read a book.
I am just looking at the note-board where are my friends' pictures.Gosh, i am so lucky to have such a good friends!But sometimes it makes me sad i live so far from some of my friends. Long distance sucks. Although it doesn't change that much. My friends from other countries are the same important to me(or even more important to me) than some of my friends here in Estonia..

"There is no distance too far between friends, for friendship gives wings to the heart."

I wish i could meet with all my closest friends from the net. Well, Sharon(from Holland) and i have met 3 times and these have been one of the BEST days (actually weeks) of my life! I really hope we can meet more and more. Sometimes i think it would be so awesome if we could meet at least once a year..even if we have our own familes and children and so on..
And there are some many more friends who i would love to meet!!SO SO BAD!
But right now i must be happy what i have. I really thank God for having me the friends i have.They are all so amazing. I wish i never have to loose them. But as you know i have lost my very best friend Clara already.But she is always deep in my heart!

"Though we are drifted apart in distance I still think of you as being right here. And although we have many new friends, it is our friendship that means the most to me."

Love ya all

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Waiting for lunch...


I am waiting for lunch so i thought to come here and write a bit.
Me and my sister watched The Butterfly Effect 3 just a bit time ago.Hmm, it was good, but i think the 2nd one was the best of all the three. When the 2nd one was more about love and fixing it in the past and so on, then the 3rd one was more about fixing crimes and stuff like that. The main character messed everything up..made it a lot worse.So, it was a bit annoying. BUT the end was the best in the 3rd one. It was surprising and very interesting, i must say.
Well, now a little bit another talk. I was just surfing on the net and i found someone's website about chocolates. And there was even written about Estonia's chocolate fabric called Kalev. It is the only sweets fabric here. Most of the sweets we just import. Anyway, but i LOVE Estonia's chocolates.These are really really delicoius.And i am pretty happy seeing this website about chocolate. The owner wrote there that she has tasted Kalev's chocolates and she loves them.And there was bunch of comments.Everybody who wrote had only good things to say about our chocolates. As comes out people from USA, Spain and other countries really like our chocolate and they even want to order it. I think the best Kalev's chocolate is white chocolate with puffed rice and bilberries.Really delicious!!!!! Oh, who am i kidding with..all the chocolates are good. I mean like ALL. I have never tasted a chocolate i don't like. But still i have some favorites...

"
Chemically speaking, chocolate really is the world's perfect food."


Oh, i have a pretty good news. My grandmom called me today and told that she saw my teacher at school(you know my granny is a English teacher..) and my teacher had given her an invitation for The Best Students' Concert in Rapla County. Mayor of Rapla County will be there and i don't know who else..Of course other students..with their parents..Yeah, the invitation was for the student and parents. I heard that from my class 4 students got the invitation..3 girls and 1 boy. Teacher gave my friend's invitation to my granny too so later i will go to my granny's place to get the invitations and then i will go to my friend's place and give one to her.
Oh, and you can imagine how happy and excited my dad was when i told him about it.He was like a little child who gets a new toy.Super happy.LOL And he quickly called my mom and told her about that too. Like HELLLOO?!! I thought i could tell it. Besides, it's not a big deal. It's funny to see my parents so happy for something like that. But i let them be happy. I forgot to say the concert is on 18th June..2 days before i graduate. I don't know what to wear...
Well, i have time to figure it out. By the way, i think i will go to Tallinn on Friday with my friend Elise. First we want to go to the cinema to watch Hannah Montana movie. I have actually seen it already, but she hasn't so we will go:) And then we will go shopping. I need to buy two gifts. On Friday evening i will go to Laura's(my friend) birthday and on Saturday evening my friend Sigrid will celebrate her birthday. So, two birthdays in two evenings. Exciting.But it is so hard to buy a present. They don't even tell what they want.haha. I will figure out something though..i always do!

Okay, i'm going downstairs to see if the lunch is ready;)

Twilight

Twilight l Edward and Bella Pictures, Images and Photos

I don't know if i have mentioned, but im obsessed with Twilight. The movie is an AMAZING! And all the books are super cool! I have read all 4 of them. I really hope S.Meyer will finish the 5th one too, Midnight Sun. I have read it a bit from the Internet, but it's not the same as reading it from the book. I don't know why, but i am that kind of person who LOVES to own books. I sometimes borrow some books from the library,but mostly i buy books. Maybe it is like that because after i have finished reading a good book i don't want to give it back to the library.I want to have it forever. I may want to read it again...

Anyway, my friend Ruby sent me few Twilight animated icons. I love them.

bella & edward animation Pictures, Images and Photos

bella & edward animation Pictures, Images and Photos

Monday, June 8, 2009

Done..



I have done so much today!
-i went to post office and post a package to my friend.
-i went to the library with my sister(they didn't have the book i wanted..so i came home empty handed)
-i watched a movie with my sister (The Butterfly Effect 2)
-i watched new episode of College Life
-i helped mom in the garden(i had to!:S)
-i finally customized my blog a bit

So, that's quickly said what i did today. Day was actually way longer.

By the way, if you haven't seen The Butterfly Effect 2 yet then i totally recommend. It was very good. Tomorrow i'm planning to watch the 3rd one!
These are actually pretty good movies. And i think they have even a deep message.

Can you change your past without destroying your future?
Change one thing, change everything.
Such minor changes, such huge consequences.

It has been said something as small as the flutter of a butterfly's wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world. - Chaos Theory
(from The Butterfly Effect)

It's 10 minutes over midnight. I am quite tired. But i guess i can't sleep. Like last night. It's like that: i'm tired, i go to bed and i just can't fall asleep till 2 am. It is really annoying!

Anyway, changing the subject..
I was looking for a new laptop today..i think i want a pink laptop, but then again..maybe i will regret it later when i am a bit older..i don't plan to buy a new every year. lol But then i saw dark purple. I think that's pretty cool too. But, sure the color doesn't matter as much the laptop itself. Geez!It is really hard to pick out one because there's sooo many different laptop labels and so many different types of laptops. I still haven't made a final decision, but i found few i like...it's a start at least.haha



Okay, i better go to the bed now.
As i wish every night to my sister i wish it for you all:

Good night, have a colorful dreams & i hope everything goes well tomorrow!:)

XOXO

Sunday, June 7, 2009

All about SUMMER&GRANNIES&PHOTOS!:)






Geez! I still don't believe it's summer. I mean summer holiday. I don't know the exact date when summer starts...
Well, i wish the graduation was over already because maybe then finally it will hit me that high school is over :) :( I'm not even sure is it a good or bad thing. Maybe not bad, but a bit sad. If i only knew what to do next.
But it is SUMMER! So, i must enjoy it. Today is quite good weather.I did some garden works and then i watched new episode of HM. I actually promised to myself not to come to the net today. Usually i can keep promises, but i guess not today. My friend Jake has a birthday today! So, that's one reason why i had to come to the net. I wished him "happy 20th birthday!". He is coming to Estonia this summer. He's from USA, btw. I can't wait to hung out with him. It's gonna be so fun summer!
Oh, and i will work from 1st July till 5th August(but sure weekends are free). I'm gonna work in a cafe in a hospital of Viimsi. I really like this job because i have done it every summer and i have so many friends there and they are all so nice! haha

Oh, Summer! I'm hoping they will be a lot of good beach weathers! I want to swim! :)

I forgot to mention that at that time when i work in the cafe i will live at my granny's. It will be interesting tribulation as always. Don't get me wrong. I love my granny and i like to be with her. But the whole month with her can be a real hard thing. Seriously, every summer after the one month work i am soooo happy to be back at home and i don't want to see my granny at all... She likes to control my life. Not only mine, all of our lives. I know she has only a good intentions though.

But i must say im really lucky with my both grannies. My mom's mom lives here in the same city as i live and she is a English teacher. So, i see her all the time. At school i see her every day. She is my English grammar teacher. But my other granny lives in Viimsi(in North Tallinn). I don't see her every day, but still quite a lot. She comes here or we go there or we just meet i don't know where. Besides, she calles every single day..literally. Actually, usually she calles more than once in a day. One thing is sure- my both grannies are so caring!
Oh, a funny thing. The granny who lives near to my home likes to celebrate everything. I think it's so sweet. She remembers EVERYBODY's birthday, nameday, anniversary and so on.. And she always makes presents. Most of the people on Estonia even don't know when their nameday is. I know mine is on 19th April. And so i was sleeping in the morning and it was 10 am when granny called. I was so surprised. She wished me happy nameday. It was a huge surprise. I really had forgotten it's my nameday. I didn't think of the dates so much. Anyway, she told she will give me a little present at school. haha. She always gives some sweets. I have 6 letters in my name (SANDRA), so i always get 6 different sweets(chocolates, candies, bubble gums, waffels and so on..) It's so sweet of her, isn't it?! haha. You just gottttta love my granny :D
Btw, my both grannies have the same name:D hihi.

Few days ago my granny called me and asked how am i. I asked what she has done today. She said:"Oh, i have laughed a lot!Life should always be full of jokes and a good laughter."

That reminded me how much fun i always have with my granny. When im with her i always have belly laughter:) One burst of laughter comes to another..:D


my both grannies :)

Oh, guess what? My granny came here while i was writing this blog. That's why i made a pause of writing. But now she and grandpa left. And, i am back here. You can only guess once why they came here?!LOL My grandmom wanted to bring some sweets for my younger sister because school year ended. She likes to celebrate summer holiday start!:D So, she brought a lottt of chocolates, cookies and fruits. We had a cup of tea and just chatted. Grandpa took pictures. He is such a good photographer. It is really cool because we get a lot of pictures from him. I love photos and im very happy to have a grandpa who has taken a lot of photos of our lives.

"A good snapshot stops a moment from running away."

"All photographs are there to remind us of what we forget."

I think photographs hold our memories. Photographs are mirrors.



This is a photo of my grandmother's family. My grandmother is the little girl on the left. In the photo are also my great grandmother and my great great grandmother.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

dreamss....


"...nowadays my only dream is to dream another dream."


My best friend Clara once wrote me a poem called "Dreamer". It is one of my fav poems of the ones she wrote me. I really like the last line from the poem...

"...nowadays my only dream is to dream another dream."


I miss you, C!

Friday, June 5, 2009

Good&Bad



Good morning:)

I had an amazing day yesterday!I went to Tallinn to culture center of Salme. I helped there to help to organize a dance-show. I entertained the dancers who came. They didn't dance all at the same time and so they came to the culture center in different times. I also helped back stage with the costumes. The show was awesome!!! And these little dancers were so cool. They were from the age 6 to age 15. It was very very fun!!!

But today hasnt been so good day. Well, my cellphone got wet and i brought it to the fix-it shop. Few days ago i got a text that i can go and get it back.They told the fixing cost 250.- I was so happy i can get it. My dad went to Tallinn today so i gave him the money so he can get my cellphone back. And later he called me and told me the bad news: he payed the money and got my phone back, but came out that they couldn't fix it. My phone was too damaged. GREAT!! Why did i have to pay then? Besides i had guarantee. It's so unfair. Now i have to buy a new cellphone. I think I'm going to buy the same one...

Oh my gosh!Yesterday happened a weird thing.I was in front of my mirror and suddenly i smelled this so familiar smell.And i was thinking soo hard where have i smelled it before.And then i remembered. It smelled just like my friend's home in Holland. lol I know it sounds weird, but its true. When i closed my eyes and only smelled it it felt EXACTLY like when i was there. I visited her last Christmas time. By the way, i was wondering where does this smell come from because i haven't smelled it before in my room. And they i saw it comes from the air cleaner machine that mom put to my room. I am allergic to dust so sometimes when i have runny nose and im sneezing i take the air cleaner machine to my room. But i hadn't had it for so long. Anyways, i really like what i discovered.LOL

By the way, i took a pictures of my super sweet dog Bonnie and my two cats! Aren't they adorable. They mean a world to me!








"I promise i love you forever- every single day of forever."



I forgot one thing. I think i have mentioned that i will graduate this summer. And i hope after that i can go to University. Right now i don't know yet what i want to study.Well, i know what i want, but i don't know if i can. But sure i will try. I need to get my exam results back. I know i didn't do that well as i hoped i might do. It's kinda scary that my future depends on these exam results. And even more scarier is that i must decide what i want to do the rest of my life. I know i love English so i would LOVE to study English language and culture. But it's not that easy to get an opportunity to study that subject. As i said everything depends of my exam results.

"It is okay to be afraid.It is not okay to let the fear hold you back from accomplishing great and wonderful things."

I try to do my best to study what i really love because i don't want to regret my decision.
Oh, and another thing.When i finished 9th grade with straight A's everybody in my family started talking about Golden Medal. Not many students get Golden Medal when they graduate high school, but only these who have straight A's. Now they have all been hoping that i will graduate high school with golden medal. And i really have had straight A's. But the school i go to made a new system. Only these who have straight A's AND very good exam results (al least 80 points) can graduate with golden medal. And to be honest i never thought of this medal or anything. I have studied for myself. I haven't felt any pressure from my mom either, or from my dad. But i can see they would be so proud. And they were really hoping i will get it. Sure i would LOVE to get it. Like who wouldn't?! But i can't change the fact that i didn't do my exams so well. Today mom told that she read from the local news paper that in my school 4 student will graduate with golden medal and 4 with silver medal. I know that three classmates of mine will graduate with golden medal, but i don't know who is the 4th?! It can't be me. But mom and i were talking about it and came up that maybe they meant there's a possibility that 4 will graduate with golden medal. But sure our school staff don't know that i messed with with my exams. I even don't know the points yet, but i feel and know i didn't do a great job. But whatever. Why i am talking about it is that i just wanted to get it over my chect. lol Everything. Now i don't want to think about the graduation or this golden medal.Nor do i want to worry about my exam results.

"Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday."


Anyway, changing the subject..
It has been raining last few days.But i can see the clouds are going away. I think tomorrow won't rain anymore. I don't have any plans for today. Too bad i watched all the 1st season's episodes of Privileged. And all the episodes of College Life also. Now i have to wait till 7th June because then will air a new episode of CL! That reminds me that yesterday was new episode of Myspace Wedding.I am going to check it out!:)
And later i want to read Marley&Me. I haven't had time to read it much...

xoxo

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

I want...



Geez! Sometimes i want too many things. Why do i always want what i can't have or what is hard to get...But it's the same with the dreams.We always dream of something that is inaccessible or just hard to catch. Otherwise we would not dream of it. We would just have it. Anyways, right now i have TWO things i really want to get:

1) Necklace with my name (Sandra). I want a silver necklace with my name so i could wear it all the time. I don't even know why i want it so much.But i think its cute. Oh, and so many celebrities have one with their name. But that's definitely not the reason why i want it. Although i so like Miley's and Whitney's necklaces. And its cool they always wear them. I was looking from the net yesterday if there's any with my name. Sure i found, but not in Estonia. So, it means i have to order. The ones i found are quite expensive, but that's not the MAIN problem. We don't have credit cards here. And that's why i can't order anything..annoying, isn't it?
So, it was the first thing i want very much.

2) I found an amazing book that i so want to read.It's called "Thirteen reasons why". Thank God i am able to order it. We have one really cool online bookstore in the net that is Estonian and there are lots of books in English. Not all, but quite many. And i already checked out and they HAVE it:) That means i'm going to order this book! yay! Because it's Estonian bookstore they don't ask for credit card! They accept electron cards.How nice! I haven't read the book yet, but i know it's a very good book. If you have chance definitely read it! Here's a short review:

"Clay Jensen returns home from school one day to find a mysterious box, with his name on it, lying on the porch. Inside he discovers 13 cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker - his classmate - who committed suicide two weeks earlier. On tape, Hannah explains that there are thirteen reasons why she did what she did - and Clay is one of them. If he listens, he'll find out how she made the list - and it'll change Clay's life forever."

I think it sounds so interesting. One friend of mine read the book and told me that it changed his view to the life. I'm looking forward to read that book already!


Okay, so much about the things i want. Now a little bit about tomorrow. I am going to Tallinn to a danceshow. I will help backstage. I think it's such a cool work. One dance-studio has some show tomorrow and their dance teacher was looking someone to help them. So, i got the job. It's just a one day job. But im very looking forward to it. Most of the kids who are dancing are from 1st and 2nd grades. That's why they need me. To help them change thier costumes and just to make sure they are read to go to the stage when it's their time. I hope it's going to be a nice day tomorrow!

Well, im going to have a lunch now;)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

I'm feelin' okay


Today was a pretty cool day! After i woke up i watched The Hills. I was so excited to see the last episode with LC. It was quite sad.The Hills won't be the same without her...
Oh, and the MOST important thing.Yesterday the FIRST thing i did after i woke up was that i went to mtv.com to see the trailer of New Moon. Gosh!!!!!!!!!it was amazing:) and then of course i watched the whole MTV movie awards 2009. I loved it so much! It was all about Twilight! Oh, it was so funny when Kristen Stewart dropped her award.Gosh! The "kiss" was so cute and i really hoped they would actually kiss..but they did a great show! ps!if you are a fan of Twilight and haven't seen it yet you should definitely watch it.I promise its worth it!

Anyway, i was talking about today. After i watched The Hills i went out with my friend Laura. We just walked around Kohila and then we met couple of our classmates. We chatted a bit and then we went to eat hamburger.Later we met our other friend, again chatted a bit and me and Laura decided to give our voice..we are choosing a person who will represent Estonia in the Parlament of Europe. So, as we are over 18 years old we can give our voice too. And that's exactly what we did.We didn't support the same political party though.
Well, after being politically active we came to my place to "shop" online. We didn't really buy/order anything. WE were just looking..lol Too bad we don't have credit cards here. Just an electron cards. But i found an amazingly cute bikinis. Just perfect for this summer. I want them so bad. I already forgot what shop are the from...me&my bad memory.

Geez.A bit time ago i watched one of my fav tv series called Home&Away. I really love that series.I basically grew up watching it! The cast has changed so many times, but the story is so cool, so interesting and never boring!Love it <333

"A room without books is like a body without a soul."

Right now im reading a book called "Marley and Me". I went to the cinema to see it with my granny and my sister. Gosh! The whole audience was crying in the end. Nobody could hold their tears back. It was very sad! After the movie i was sure i want to read this book too. And im lovin' it. I have read only 100 pages yet, but it's the same good as the movie.Really, really funny. But im a bit scared to read the end because i know it's going to be very sad. When i watched the movie i was thinking of my dog Ronni who i lost 3 years ago. She was my very best friend.I know it may sound stupid, but i don't care.It's how i felt and im happy she knew that.I told her every single day how much i loved that.So, one is sure, she knew how much i cared of her and loved her.That's all that matters! I am still constantly thinking of her. She was too important for me.I will never forget her. I love a book called "Blue Bird". It is a very simple fairy-tale that has so many deep messages in it.

"The story of the Blue Bird is the base on which the Wizzard of Oz was written and is a beautiful yet realistic story of two children's dreams. It has hidden meanings in its story and truths which are often denied to children, while the images and the character lines are colourful and imaginative."

Thia book taught me that we never should forget dear people who we have lost and we are missing. We should remember them every day because it is the only was they can always stay with us. I want to remember my dog Ronni forever.That's why i think of her all the time. Sometimes it makes me sad, sometimes it makes me happy. We have so many memories and i want to hold them in my heart forever, just like i hold my dog in there.
3 years ago i lost my other best friend- Clara. She meant everything to me. I never thought i would meet such an amazing friend like her.But destiny was sweet me and i got to know her and become such a good friend with her. But her doctor discovered that she has a cancer.When i first heard of it i thought it's a joke.But then i understood it'n not. I took it hard but i knew she needs a optimisitc friend.I was there for her this whole time. She was so strong.She is probably the strongest person i have ever known. And the most sweetest! She just knew how to make me happy. I'm not saying i'm not happy anymore, but she was so special and when she was still here with me i felt that it cannot be any better.I had everything i needed- a loving family, my dog and other pets, my best friend Clara and all my other friends. And whenever i felt down she made me happy and positive again. The doctor said if the threatment wouldn't help she would have been gone till the end of the summer. It seemed so unreal. How could she just be gone. I had just met her. We had been friends about 2 weeks by the time she heard the bad news. I was praying every night and really believing she can make it. I had a strong faith. I asked for a miracle. But it never come..or maybe it did. Clara WAS a miracle. Although she died on 19th June (18 days after she heard about her illness) i know she was happy, peaceful. Night before she died we talked very very long. I felt so happy. When i went to bed i prayed again, like every night.I remember i thanked God for giving me my best friend.And i asked him once again not to take my best friend away from me and all the other ones who loved her. Next morning i heard the sad news. At first it was hard to believe it. I saw hundred pictures in my eyes. All the memories i had with her. It was so hard to realize she was really gone. But never gone from my life. She is always with me just ask she promised. She is in my heart and in my thoughts. I am not scared of thinking of her althought it sometimes hurts. But i want her to know that i haven't forgotten her. She will be my no.1 friend forever. Sure i didn't understand why God took her away. But i guess God needed a new angel. And Clara was just perfect to be one. She was angel down here already...
This summer 3 years ago was the hardest because i lost my two best friends- Clara and 6 days later my dog Ronni. I cried a lot and didn't see a light or strenght to move on. But my friends and family were here for me and i learned to move on still not forgetting my sweeties!
Life is unpredictable so we should always be thankful of what we have and we should show our love and caring to the persons who are important for us because we never know what could happen. If they know they are loved they can be happy whereever they are.


Sometimes it's good to go back in time and think if the things that are a bit painful..but it's all worth it.

"No love, no friendship can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever."