THE days

As usual the days that I spent with Jay were so fun and full of happiness! Hehe! We spend quite a lot time at home, just watching tv, cooking, talking, joking and so on. We also went out - to have lunch or to the movies. Whereever we went or whatever we did, I enjoyed it because I was with Jay!

He went back to Finland today morning. I went to Rocca al Mare school to give some classes. When I came home I went for a run and did some workout. It's May Running Day tomorrow! I gotta be ready to run 7 km. When I was younger 7 km seemed so long distance, but now it doesn't seem so long at all.

But anyway, I am enjoying the spring and my fav fruits that they start selling at food markets. Right now I am eating blueberries and cherries. I also have strawberries, kiwis, oranges, apples and bananas. And some more cherries and blueberries. Gosh! I loveeee fruits and berries so much!

Day after tomorros (on Sunday) I am going to Finland with the very first ship. So, I gotta go to bed right after football tomorrow ;) I can't wait to be in Finland with Jay already! it's awesome that I can spend the whole summer with him! :)

Jay's birthday is coming up soon! I already bought him a birthday present. Actually he chose it :) Two computer games - Diablo III and Lord of the ring game (dont's know it's actual name). I am glad I got him something he wanted :)

We'll be in Finland on his birthday, but it's okay, as long as we are together!

I am going to watch my fav soap opera now and later I wanna watch new episodes of Make It or Break It and Gossip Girl :)

I hope I can watch with Jay on skype later!

a moment

I want a biggggg bookshelf like that one!

Oh I want blueberries, SO MUCH!

I wanna go to Greece!

happy days

I had the last classes of this spring semester on Saturday. After that I went home and my dad came and picked me and Chuck up. We went to my parents' house. It was Chuck's first time there. Everything was really new for him. My dog Bonnie was so happy she got one more cat to play with (she gets a long with our family cats so well!). I was so happy to see she became friends with Chuck the minute we arrived. I told her to be nice with Chuck coz he's going to stay there for the summer. It seems Bonnie understood :) So, I had to teach Chuck how to go to the garden and so on. He had never been on a grass, never seen a dog, never been with other cats. It was a lot to take in for him. But he did fine. He was sure a little careful at first, but he got used to the new environment pretty quickly! I really hope he'll enjoy his summer there. He'll have much more fun playing in the garden that living in apartment, that's for sure!

It was Mother's Day yesterday. We had a BBQ and my grandparents came also over. It was really nice to catch up and celebrate that special day! Later that evening I went walking with Bonnie, then I went running and did some workout (I felt so heavy because of all the cakes and other sweets I ate.LOL).

Today I had to wake up 6:15am coz dad went to work and I decided to go with him to the Tallinn coz I had so many bags and I didn't want to go train with all the bags I had. Now I am at home. When I arrived here I was sooo tired so I slept for two hours. Then I talked to Jay on the skype and now I am here. Around 12 o'clock we'll get our electricity back! Then I want to clean the whole apartment, will go shopping and then I'll cook myself a nice lunch and watch TV! I also wanna go running.

I am so excited for tomorrow. Jay is coming home! I cannot waiiiiittttt!!!!!! I miss him so much and I really really really want to be with him already!!!!!! It's gonna be so great! I am going to walk to the harbor to wait him there when he arrives!:)

 

Isn't it a cute photography? :)

one more day of uni

It's Friday night and tomorrow will be the last day of university for this school year! I cannot believe it! So great!

I am at my granny's for some stupid reasons, but it's okay. I try not to think of it and stay positive! I will go to Kohila tomorrow after classes. I am taking Chuck with me!

It's Mother's Day on Sunday, so I bet it'll be a very nice day!

Did I mentioned that it was so warm yesterday - 22 C degrees! I walked to the Solaris center, had a dinner there (alone:/ ) and then I walked back home eating ice-cream. It was nice, but I felt a bit alone. I really cannot wait till Tuesday! Jay is coming home! It'll be my happy day! Gosh, how much I love him. He's the sweetest guy ever. And i wonder every day how I was so lucky to get him all by myself! I feel so so so lucky! He's the best!

Oeh, I ate too much chocolate and now my stomach feels so weird. I better go and eat an orange! :)

I am waiting for Jay to come to skype! I need to see him every day coz he makes my day shine! (it's night tho).

Night!

Nick, Mick or Sick?

I am not Nick, nor am I Mich, so it leaves only one option - I'm sick :S I would say I caught a cold, but that's not entirely correct...I caught hotness. Got too much sun (no, I wasn't trying to get tan!). I was just jogging and sun was shining so bright and ugh, I just became so tired and I started feel so bad. I hate being sick.

But it's good to talk to my sweet fiance on the skype who is making me feel a lot better! :) Such a sweetheart!

thoughts

I know that recently my blogs have been all about Jay. How I miss him, or what we have been doing and so on. But it doesn't mean I don't do anything else than miss him. He's so important to me. He's my life. So, whenever I come to write here I realize I end up mentioning how much I love him or miss him. But it's all true. So, who cares, right?? I blog for myself.

I went to have a massage yesterday. I wasn't totally happy about it coz the masseuse was a man. I know it's his job to touch whoever is laying there, but oh, I felt so weird, so uncomfortable. Jay is only man who can touch me. So, Jay told me that next time we'll make sure if the masseuse is a woman! :) And he told he's going to massage me when he comes home! How cute! I will enjoy that a lot!!!!!:)

Since May Running Day is getting closer I have been going for a little jog every day. It actually feels so good to run. After I finish I always feel like I have done somethin g big although the distance weren't so long at all. Lol. But it still feels great! I plan on going tomorrow too, if it isn't raining!

Yesterday I was a very productive. I cleaned the whole apartment, did some schoolwork, put clothes on the washing mashine and took them out:D LOL.

Today I tried to study for Tuesday's test, but ohh I got so bored!

Then I watched TV! Kate plus eight, Sister wives and What not to wear. All were on Diva Universal channel. They were really good ones. I especially liked Sister wives coz it was totally new for me. It was about polygyny - a man has more than one wife. It was pretty interesting. A man had 4 wives and they all had children. They all lived together and had a normal life. They told about their believes and how they were raised in such family type. I was thinking how the wives could possible like how their husband loves them all equally and shares bed with them all. I would never ever like that. I want my fiancee only for MYSELF! I would never share him with anybody!

But that doesn't mean I dont accept polygyny. If they like their life and they are happy with their situation then it's good :)

Well, tomorrow's Sunday. I don't know what I am going to do. I'll probably study for the test a bit, watch more TV, go for a run and made something good for dinner. Dinner alone is so ugh! Lonely! But I am glad I can talk to Jay every day on skype. Usually more than once. I love that! :)

Today I started thinking if 19 year olds should be more grown up and more independent and have more resbonsibility?! Or is it just me thinking it. Well, when I was 19 y.o I graduated high school. I felt so independent. I had saved my money, I did everything I wanted, I did everything to not to depend on my parents. Even though I lived with them I felt I was on my own. Because I was 19 y.o. I couldnt be like a little kid who asks everything from their parents and depends on them. It felt wrong. But was it only me? Are all other 19 year olds still like 12 year olds? Being irresponsible and they depend on everybody else?? Well, not only 19 years old. Also 20 years old and some even older??!! I wouldn't like it. It definitely depends on the parents and how they have been raised. I am really glad that my parents taught me what is wrong and what is right, how to be dependent when it's needed and how to achive the best it's possible. We all have our dreams. And we all should know that they don't come true if we dont work for them. we may fail on the way, but we still have to fight for them. I am always giving my best to move closer to my goals.

Days are passing by so slowly when Jay is in Finland. I am counting the days! 10 more days! I need him here!!!!

Okay, it's 11pm and I am getting tired...and hungry. Gotta wait till the morning comes. I'm going to have porridge for breakfast.

Night!

12 days

Jay went back to Finland today and he's coming home in 12 days. I am waiting and missing him! :(

I try to keep myself busy, but it's pretty hard since most of my school work are done. Next week will be the very last week of university classes for this semester. So, after next week, goodbye university, and hello mega long summer holiday! :) I am so looking forward to it. Why? Because I can spend time with Jay. If he's in Finland I'll be there too, if he has break from work, we'll be in Estonia. So nice! I can't wait!

On 19th May will be May Running Day! Jay comes home on 15th May, but leaves already 18th. So, he won't be able to run next to me this year. But it's okay. My family will be there. And after the May Running Day I'll go to Finland and so we'll be there till the end of the month! Then back to Estonia for few days and then back to Finland. And so on! I can't wait till Jay has a summer holiday. He needs to have a longer break from work. I want my sweetheart to rest and relax and enjoy the summer and the hot weather ( I hope it'll be hot!!!!) :)

But yeah, right now I am counting the days...12 days to go.

Our cat Chuck had a surgery yesterday and next Saturday I am taking him to my parents' place. He'll spend the summer there.

20 cheese burgers

How wonderful it is to spend time with my fiance. We have had so funny and nice days so far! We have been to the beach, had long walks, did some shopping, had dinners and lunches out. And today morning we went to the McDonalds coz Jay wanted to buy 20 cheese burgers. He's crazy! Now we are at home and he's eaten less that 10 burgers and he's full already! I told him to eat others later coz burgers will last very long, they wont get rotten or anything. He could eat them a year later and there wouldnt be a difference.

Anyway, I got some blueberries, and yesterday I ate strawberries. Gosh, I love them! And I made pancakes today morning! Yumyumyum!:)

It's 11:11. Make a wish!

what is love?

It's Sunday morning. Gosh, how long I have been waiting for that day to come! I woke up 7am already..anxious and excited that it's Sunday! Yeah, but I still tried to keep sleeping. I told myself that the longer I sleep the less I must wait for clock to turn 11:30am. It's the time I am planning to start walking toward the harbor. I am going to walk for an hour because Jay's ship arrives at 12:30pm. Sooo, I must walk veryyy slowly!!! But I just can't sit at home and wait...I need to do something. And I miss him soooo much and seriously, I am soo hyper right now if I think that in 1,5 hours we will be together!

 

Oh, perfect! I am wating Glee (more like listening) and there came me and Jay's song, "Just the way you are" by Bruno Mars. Beautiful!

So, what is love? It's thinking of someone constantly, even when you are asleep. It's having a smile on your face whenever you hear his name. It's the forever lasting butterflies on your stomach when you are with him or thinking of him! It's the knowing that whenever you have a fight you always end up kissing. It's something that you never thought could happen to you. It's what all romantic novels write about and much more! It's true and pure happiness! It's life!

grateful

I cannot wait for tomorrow! I will see my Prince. I am so grateful to have him in my life!